this morning, at 7:33 a.m. it officially made one month, since my favorite angel earned her wings. there is SO much that i’m gonna miss out on having my momma around for, things that my older sisters were lucky enough to have her for, things most people take their moms for granted on, things that i’ll never get to experience.. she wont be here when i graduate college, or when i buy my first house. she won’t be here for me to freak out to when i get engaged or pregnant. she wont be there on my wedding day to help me into my gown, or to watch me say ‘i do’. she wont be here when my kids go off to school. when i’m lost and need directions i can’t call her, &when i just *can’t remember where i put those silver heels, she won’t be here to find them in the exact place i’ve already looked three times! theres a LOT that i won’t get to experience with my mom by my side..
but she IS here, with me, through the *little things others overlook ..so despite the pain, &the loss of all i won’t have her physically here for.. the presence and love i feel helps me to be strong ..i guess, i’m just taking it day by day.. and today, i think i’m about as okay as i can be
sleep easy Mommy& fly high. i miss you sooo very much, &as always.. I LOVE YOU MORE.